The straps held her down
as she lay in the gown
her screams echoed the hall
her face had no color at all
She knew what awaited
behind the closed door
the table, the lights,
the shock and more
She dreaded the time
but they said she'd be fine
she'd forget the past
this would take very fast
So they took her through
nothing she could do
fighting the straps that bind
while they messed with her mind
She forgot her name
but remembered her pain
she forgot how to cook
how to read from a book
She needed loving, lots of care
I tried to always just be there
it was all so very wrong
but for her, I had to be strong
She was fine for a while
not my mother but a child
by day I'd be bright
but I'd cry every night
She took those pills by the jar
she'd beg me please, Angel Star
I cant go on don't make me stay
there has to be another way
In time it all became the past
it didn't happen very fast
but she got better, she got well
though she lived in her own private hell
She'd do fine, then take a fall
it was so hard to watch it all
but when my first child I had
she brightened, she was so glad
And life went on as it should
until she had all she could
she went back into that cell
and lived there in her private hell
©
Angel Star
